This isn’t intended to be a long post. I wanted to update my last post with regards to mixing wellbutrin or bupropion (generic) and alcohol. First I should note that I accept full responsibility for my actions. I was not trying to place blame on others. I was only expressing dismay that people who should have had concern for my my well being showed absolutely none. That said, I have been known to act at least part way foolish when drunk in the past. Okay, fine, there have been some fairly reckless episodes. This however was a completely different experience and I have spent the last few days really miserable, as though the medication is having no effect.
So I dug around a little. Turns out you aren’t intended to mix alcohol and bupropion. This was news to me. Dr. Saint and I had not discussed it as it had not come up, I do not drink much more than once every two months, maybe every month and a half. I have slowed down with age. When I do however, like a junkie in relapse I revert to drinking the very same volume as I was used to. I found that mixing bupropion and alcohol can cause any of these: “hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, mood and behavioral changes, depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, and panic attacks.”
Specifically delusions, mood and behavioural changes can explain much of what little I remember from the events that took place on Friday. Eventually depression and suicidal thoughts which lasted throughout the weekend. I love how that sounds like a weather forecast. Also I went digging through some forums and it is a mixed bag but I am finding reports from all over claiming that what I am experiencing isn’t uncommon. Apparently it can negate the typical effects of the medication for a few days. This I found most distressing, I had been having some really miserable thoughts over the last two days, especially given the events of Friday night. I honestly have not felt this alone in forever and was frankly feeling really suicidal. I decided to lay low and keep my mind off of it as much as possible. I chose to watch “House” on DVD. I have smoked a grand total of about seven cigarettes all weekend. Which is dramatically low for me. I am becoming a different person. There will be more on this later perhaps when I am in better spirits.