I’ve left Kali behind and immediately my life got immensely better. It’s so wild to think that the pheromones of that woman had me so twisted up I believed that she was actually in love with me. She is Poison Ivy from Batman. She uses her pheromones to make men go crazy and do her bidding.
Now Delilah is back in my life. Slowly working her way back in. I am not jumping into a relationship. Yet she and I are talking and getting physical. It’s comforting. She is such a sweet woman. I’ve also gone visiting with other women, some new and some from my past. My friend Crazy is having similar issues with a man with whom she is sleeping. She and I are getting close and considering physical options. She is an ex of mine from 20 years ago.
Sure, there is a part of me that recognizes that I am filling a void. However, there is also a part of me that is merely making up for lost time. I don’t like spending long periods of time out of service. So this entire clusterfuck with Kali represented a gross loss of time that I need to recuperate.
I will always love the women that I have loved. I still love Kali. But I also still love Crazy, Delilah and Kimberly, whom I visited in the big city recently. Then there was Sylvie whom I did finally manage a session with. Though now she has started dating another guy. Truthfully without the bonds and restrictions of a relationship I always find something new to get up to. Or something old to get up to.
I can’t rightly complain about my life. Things are improving. Spring is coming and I’ve left another controlling, manipulative woman in the dust. I pity her. I pity the shortsightedness of women. Their total incapability to work through such tiny issues to gain the big prize and all the little beautiful things along the way. I am super considerate, so being a woman in my life is rewarding. I will always be there for you and thoughtfully doing sweet and useful things for you. So to just discard that is the paramount of insanity. I have recently had a run of bad experiences with woman incapable of moving up and onward with their lives. Improving and expanding.
There will come the one someday. Until then I am actually very blessed with feminine presence in my life. I am just going to go on safari and enjoy the majesty and beauty of the natural wildlife all around me and let it move me. The goal in my life is to be a better person than I was in a better place than I was and I am achieving that. Leaving behind those who have no interest in these things doesn’t hurt me in the slightest. In fact, it is a huge benefit to me. I have taken a massive step up. So long and goodnight!